SLEEZEBALL TIMEWASTER

So I cannot believe we are onto the 3rd guy?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?! This one is probably one of the most interesting (don't worry there are others like this.)

Name: Sleezeball timewaster

How long talking to: March 2015- May 2015

When it stopped: End of May

What we talked about: Okay, this guy was slightly older than me, being 28 while I was 21 but even though it was on my mind a lot, I let it go because age shouldn't matter.. should it?  Our conversations were never fully in depth all the time, it was just a casual what we were doing, our families etc, so different to the previous guy!  Sleeze made a lot of "plans" for the future like helping conquer parallel parking for one! Ironically I parked outside his barbers that he owned, I knew he had one in that area but didn't know it was his just a guess... and after he text saying I saw you park how comes you didn't come in and say hi.  I was with my friend at the time and we literally had a screaming meltdown in shopping car park, people were looking and everything, probably one good thing that came out of it aha!  I even spoke to him on the phone for quite a long time which was nice but weird as I hadn't really spoken to a guy before!! When it came to the time to meet, he kept cancelling and saying work took over.. or his phone would break and I would have to go through POF to reach him.


And to end all of that he was an idiot basically LOL I started writing this last Oct then went to Italy and never had any motivation to carry it on. 

In my next post some time soon I will explain the one who made it my BF ALEX <3333

FRIENDZONED GREEK GUY

Sorry for the wait... but still updating on a Thursday so you know, you can't complain! ;)

Name: Friendzoned Greek Guy (FYI becoming hard to think of nickmames, especially when it happened so long ago!)

Time: 1:00

Date: 14th February 2015 (typical aha)

How long talking before meet: We were talking for 2 weeks prior to date, it took me like 6 months to trust online dating because of what happened last time! They were quite long texts that were sent every day!!!  We talked about everything again like the other guy but it was more intense and he would never leave me hanging!! 

Where the date was: We were talking about meeting up after the first week we started talking and agreed on Cafe Rouge near where I lived!! We pretty much talked about meeting up like every day since and how excited we were!!

Good looking: 6/10

What was he like:  Friend zone was sooo nice!! He was polite made good conversation! He paid which I liked! Ironically it was his first date as well so we were both a bit shy!  As it was my first meet with any online guy I was nervous, but he was really easy going and talked a lot! That I wasn't used to because I usually talk 24/7, but it was a nice change!!!

How the date went:  Well for starters he was like an hour late but I knew he was in traffic even after leaving extra early! He even sent a picture and was so annoyed so I didn't hold it against him!!  Overall the date went fine, I felt all we spoke about was what we texted each other and didn't really broaden the subjects! It also felt as if we were just going to be friends and no more but I wasn't 100%.  That night we texted to make another date for the week after, so I could actually see if it was going to go anywhere, but then that Friday he was having family issues so we were going to reschedule and that week after he became very distant.  Two weeks later after still talking but not much, I asked if he wanted to meet again and he said he wanted to focus on himself.

Overall satisfaction: 5/10... bit of a let down for the second date.  I mean I understand having to look after yourself as I had to do that this year but I still made time to date! It was a nice getaway where you don't think about it!

HOW CAN ONE WORK WHEN THERE IS SO MANY OTHER FASCINATING WEBSITES ON OFFER?

Today I am meant to be doing work... essays to be exact!
But am I?! Oh heavens no, that is absurd. What am I doing you ask???
I am sitting down at the table with pens, books and notepads opened ready, looking on all the social media over and over and over and over again to distract me!
It is not working, why is working so boring? Is there a message that the brain sends around the body telling us not to do it? TELL ME THE REASON!! It is like, I know I need to do it but I am so lazy to actually start it that  I just put it off?!?!

I was thinking of starting to vlogs? But I don't know because I  re-watched that accent challenge video and hate my voice in it?! SO, I am still in the midst of thinking about it.

There I go again getting distracted; I so need help.

DAY 12: SOMETHING YOU NEVER GET COMPLIMENTS ON

It's going to seem really bad but the least thing I get complimented on is my face, prettyness etc etc.  I'm not that pretty so I don't reallly expect to be complimented on it but it would of been nice to once in a while.
I don't get many boys looking my way so I never get any from them which is a downer because I would like to get something from them but I'm not expecting miracles!!

Obviously my family say I'm pretty but that's bias because they have to say that they are my family!!

DAY 8: SOMEONE WHO MADE YOUR LIFE HELL, OR TREATED YOU LIKE SHIT

Well I'm not gona mention any names but two people made my life hell in Primary/Secondary School. I got verbal abuse in both and a bit of physical in Primary.  I'm too nice and I always let people run over me!
I try to stick up for my self but it doesn't happen and my friends try and help me but it still doesn't happen. I don't have the willpower that others have!!
So these girls made me not want to come to school, I just thought I deserved it kind of and put the thoughts to the back of my mind!!  There were boys who also bullied me which I think were worse because they put me down, called me ugly, and frizzy hair! It got so bad in Primary once when my mum called up and they missed out on swimming. :(
Although I did tell my mum, when she went to tell the school, it made things worse which made me not want to tell her because I'd rather things stayed the same rather then get worse.
Bullying is the worst thing that can happen to a person of a young age and it just doesn't happen at school it can happen at home, when your older in a relationship and I think we all need to find the power and do something to stop it because it ruins people's life and makes their self-esteem go down and then that leaves them unconfident and scared.

DAY 3: SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO FORGIVE YOURSELF FOR

Did you think I forgot??? :p

The only thing I think I should forgive myself for is not accepting about my back operation!

It's still not sunk in and I have had the op and it's been nearly 4 years!!! It's gone so fast :s and I'm always complaining about it which is bad!!!! Obviously I am happy I lived and that it being major and everything but I just want to forget it ever happened..... one day I'll do a whole blog on it like a diary  4 years too late!!! would u like that???

So I'm always blaming myself for my back like it's my fault! Even when my sister had hers, all I was thinking was why her!!!! :'(

I should let go of this blame and be able to forgive myself for something that wasn't even my fault.

Tune in tomorrow for the next challenge.... here is a hint... it's about forgiveness again!!!!

30 days of truth- first day- something you hate about yourself

Soooo, I was looking at challenges I could do and this one seems good, so the I will try this: http://hope.gr/30-days-of-truth/

The first day - SOMETHING YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF

Where to start on this hmmmm......
Well I absolutelyy hate my nosee!!!! It's so long and it sticks out which is not good!!! Although I would never ever get a nose job or any cosmetic surgery :s
I hate that I don't have any curves I'm just thin which makes it soooo hard to find clothes which look nice on me!
I hate having no confidence or self-esteem :-( it makes things so much worse for me, I have to do things at a slower pace and making friends seems to be harder as well
I hate my operation that I had 4 years ago on my back, the amount of pain it's causing/caused me is so annoying! But there's nothing I can do about it now is there?

I think I have covered everything, where as somethings can't be fixed ie my back I can help myself become more confident which I do by speaking to myself in the mirror  telling myself I am great  ;D
It seems to be working!! My driving instructor said I'm nearly ready for my test :D:D:D


















Come back tomorrow for the next challenge xxx