LAST DAY, DAY 30: A LETTER TO YOURSELF, TELL YOURSELF EVERYTHING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF

Dear Andrea,

You are the best.  You are quirky, unique and different and I love that.  I love how you are determined to get your career goal as a teacher and won't let anything stop you especially your back operation, which could of taken a turn for the worst.
Talking of you back, you are now proud that you have done it and even though there were a few ups and downs, you  have taken everything in and are now stronger then ever.
I love that you have some new confidence although more is needed, this confidence has allowed you to do things that you wouldn't think of doing, ie making friends before uni with complete strangers, that it what I love.   A few years ago you would of done that would you?
I love that you are caring and kind, you would help everyone without the click of a finger.
I love that you put work first before everything as you want to do, I love how determined you are at everything, even though some things have back fired (if you know what I mean)
You are driving so much better now, and I love that as you will be driving as soon as.

One thing I should say in kindness, have more faith in yourself, don't be so pessimistic.

Love
Andrea


And for any of you who would like a go here is the link: The 30 Days of Truth List

I FORGOT DAY 27: WHAT IS THE BEST THING GOING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW

I forgot this day, oh no, so I will do it quickly now.  The best thing going for me right now is univeristy and a job!!

I am loving university right now, although I have finished, I am still in contact with a lot of the people from it which is really good and I am also meeting up with someone of them which is good because I am enjoying their company.

I may have two job.  My first job is confirmed and is with a nursery agency which is good because it is what I want to be when I am older and they ring me up with work if there is any on the days I can do which is good because I get to choose my days but the downside is there may not be any work on the days I have chosen.

I also have applied to a deli, so fingers crossed.  I am still looking for a job, I am desperately in need of one.

DAY 29: SOMETHING YOU HOPE TO CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF. AND WHY

I want to change the way I am with people I want to be able to be more confident and make friends more easier.  It is so hard being shy and having no self esteem which in a way is because of everything that has happened in my life.

:)

DAY 28: WHAT IF YOU GOT PREGNANT? OR SOMEONE ELSE GOT PREGNANT'

If I was pregnant I couldn't not have an abortion, to me it is wrong, so I would keep it and tell my family which they wouldn't be happy about, but they would help me through it.  After I had the baby I think I would have to give it up for adoption because I know there is no way I can take care of a baby and do my uni work at the same time and I wouldn't give uni up, it is a blessing. What I could do is keep it and let my parents take care of it but then again there is the financial side of it, if already we are not coping what is a baby going to do to that, make it worse?  If I give the baby away someone else who is ready to have a baby but cannot have their own will be able to have the baby they always wanted and to me that is a good thing.  I will have the choice of who my baby goes to and I will make sure that they are suitable for my child.  You do get very attached to the baby while pregnant (I heard and learnt about), so maybe once I have had the baby it will change and I will keep the baby.

If someone else got pregnant, I would support them and do everything I can to help them because it is a hard time and I would want the same for me.

DAY 26: HAVE YOU EVER THOUGH OF GIVING UP ON YOUR LIFE? IF SO, WHEN AND WHY

I wouldn't really call it giving up more of a can't be bothered, most of it was when I was getting bullied and it was horrible.

That is  all I have to say

DAY 25: THE REASON YOUR ALIVE TODAY3

I am alive today to help children.  I really believe that, I can't wait to start teaching, it will be a new era in my life, I will be a teacher, I will have my own class :DD

If I was going to be dead, would God not of made it happen by now? He had a good chance doing it with my operation, but that didn't happen did it!!!!! So I am here for a reason!!
I'm here for my family, if it wasn't for them where would I be?? They are my stone and rock and would never take them for granted.

DAY 24: MAKE A PLAYLIST TO SOMEONE AND EXPLAIN WHY YOU CHOSE ALL THE SONGS. (JUST POSE THE TITLES AND ARTISTS AND LETTER

Dear Mum,
Here is my playlist:
Mariah Carey- Hero- This song was chosen because from you I feel like I can now do what I want and that no one will judge me.
One direction- What makes you beautiful- Your always telling me how pretty I am!
Mr Hudson- Whit Lies- You always know when I'm lying!!!!
Alexis Jordon- Good girl- Because I'm a good girl and this is how you raised me.

These 4 songs remind me of you and always will :)

Love Andrea

DAY 23: SOMETHING YOU WISH YOU HAD DONE IN YOUR LIFE

I wish I went to the disneyland Paris for a week in year 9!!!
This was a good chance for me to be more independent and have fun and I let it go!!! I didn't give my application in soon enough" Partly because my friends said they weren't going to go but then they did! But they are not my friends anymore lol, so doesn't matter :)

DAY 20: YOUR VIEWS ON ALCOHOL AND DRUGS

So it is a day later- sorry but here it is!
I don't drink, its my personal preference, I hate the taste and what it does to you! I like being in control.... but people who do drink in moderations I think is okay! When I'm out when people drink I let them and I even taste the drink but would never own my own drink... although I said to my friend I would have one on my birthday!
I think people start getting addicted to alcohol when they start having it soo often it comes parts of their lives and they can't stop drinking everyday! It is a problem and I am happy that there is help out there for these people.

Now for drugs. I hate them. They are illegal for one. They make you do weird thing for seconds. Why would you want to harm your body? to fit in? I will never do it and never will.

DAY 19: WHAT DO YOU THINK OF RELIGION? OR WHAT DO YOU THINK OF POLITICS

I will talk about religion!!
I think religion is important if you believe in a faith!! I am a Christian but I don't go church every Sunday, I go a few times a year but I know how important it is like the traditions are implemented in my family and I learned a lot in the RE lessons in school that I grow up with.  I didn't just learn about Christianity, I learnt about Buddhism, Islam, Judaism etc etc.  This is important because I am now familiar with these faiths and now the beliefs put in.  In Year 9-11, I specialised in Christianity and Islam and learnt about everything from view on marriage to views on abortion and drugs which I found really interesting because I got to see new opinions.
I think all children should learn about these faiths! Some parents may not allow their child to learn about religion which is ok because it is their beliefs and everyone is allowed their own choice, especially when it comes to their child. But when the children do learn about religion, they should be fun lesssons and try to celebrate all faith traditions as it will be equal among the students.

That is what I think about religion :)

DAY 18: YOUR VIEWS ON GAY MARRIAGE

I think gay marriage is fine!! People should be able to express themselves whoever they are! It shouldn't matter on who the person is if it is a girl-girl or boy-boy getting married they are in love and should be able to do something to be happy!
I have friends who are gay and I support them loads!! People shouldn't be descriminated on who they like!! It's their heart, they are the ones who should decide without feeling judged or looked at! It's been around for ages and everyone should accept it!
I don't know why people are against it soo much saying it is not right! Is it affecting them?? I understand once a family finds out it must be hard for them, but after a while you should accept it, they are not doing anything wrong!!!

What are your opinion???

DAY 15: SOMETHING OR SOMEONE YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT BECAUSE YOU HAVE TRIED LIVING WITHOUT IT

We are half way through alreaddyyyy woooo :):)

I have a "something" I can't live without and that's my book, my precious books!! I tried living without it of course I have and my life is sooo boring!!! I love books and I am addicted to them. I used to read about 4/5 books a week....
That's changed now, and I don't know why! Maybe it is because I have gotten older so there is no need for me read so many books in a week and that it takes longer for me to read them but as long as I have books I am happy.
I think books are so important as it helps us imagine what is happening, it helps children learn to write, speak and they can create their own stories from the pictures given.

I don't know what the future brings and if I will be reading or not but all I know is for now I can't do without <3

DAY 13: A BAND OR ARTIST THAT HAS GOTTEN YOU THROUGH SOME TOUGH ASS DAYS

Dear Taylor Swift,

I feel your songs are so inspirational and that I can be anything I want to be and that it's okay to be different!
When I hear your music all I do is shout you lyrics and I feel okay! Especially when I feel sad and down your music comes on and I feel myself changing straight away.
I think your such a good role model for everyone and that everyone should look up to you and follow your beliefs!!
I find you don't worry that much about your weight like other celebrities and this pleases me as so many do and this is worrying and I don't care much about my weight! :) not the first thing on my mind.
To conclude Taylor you are an inspiration and always will be, helping me through the tough times and the good times to come and have come.. THANK YOU

Sincerely
Andrea

DAY 12: SOMETHING YOU NEVER GET COMPLIMENTS ON

It's going to seem really bad but the least thing I get complimented on is my face, prettyness etc etc.  I'm not that pretty so I don't reallly expect to be complimented on it but it would of been nice to once in a while.
I don't get many boys looking my way so I never get any from them which is a downer because I would like to get something from them but I'm not expecting miracles!!

Obviously my family say I'm pretty but that's bias because they have to say that they are my family!!

DAY 11: SOMETHING PEOPLE SEEM TO COMPLIMENT YOU MOST ON

I get most complimented on my figure and my legs!! As I'm so thin people think I don't eat much which is the complete opposite as I stuff my face so when they find this out they always say "Oh I want your figure so badly" or "How do you eat so much and still stay so thin" all I can say is "I don't know" because I really don't!! I've never cared nor will I ever care about what I eat!! I have a fast metabolism which is probably the main reason I stay so thin!!! Will it change when I get older... probably but there is nothing I can do about that!! I have started eating healthy and will carry on doing so as it makes me feel so much better!
I always get complimented on my legs and how long and thing they are which I love as I can wear shorts, mini skirts and dresses!!
Although I'm thin and everything and I'd rather be a little bit chunkier as it helps with stuff ie buying clothes...

DAY 8: SOMEONE WHO MADE YOUR LIFE HELL, OR TREATED YOU LIKE SHIT

Well I'm not gona mention any names but two people made my life hell in Primary/Secondary School. I got verbal abuse in both and a bit of physical in Primary.  I'm too nice and I always let people run over me!
I try to stick up for my self but it doesn't happen and my friends try and help me but it still doesn't happen. I don't have the willpower that others have!!
So these girls made me not want to come to school, I just thought I deserved it kind of and put the thoughts to the back of my mind!!  There were boys who also bullied me which I think were worse because they put me down, called me ugly, and frizzy hair! It got so bad in Primary once when my mum called up and they missed out on swimming. :(
Although I did tell my mum, when she went to tell the school, it made things worse which made me not want to tell her because I'd rather things stayed the same rather then get worse.
Bullying is the worst thing that can happen to a person of a young age and it just doesn't happen at school it can happen at home, when your older in a relationship and I think we all need to find the power and do something to stop it because it ruins people's life and makes their self-esteem go down and then that leaves them unconfident and scared.

DAY 2: SOMETHING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF

Sorry I wasn't there yesterday!! Was too busy eating :p

Soo something I love about my self hmmm.... can i say nothing?

It's not that I dont' like myself or anything, I just feel I have nothing special to love.. So I will have to think hard




THE THING I LOVE ABOUT MYSELF IS:    I love my legs!!!!!!! :D they are the best feature I have, they're long and go on forever! (I like to think).


They're slim which also helps as it doesn't look weird although I can never find any jeans that fit! Do you have any good shops I can try?

  Something like this!
What do you love about yourself bloggers??


Tune in tomorrow for part 3.... and there will be one ;)

30 days of truth- first day- something you hate about yourself

Soooo, I was looking at challenges I could do and this one seems good, so the I will try this: http://hope.gr/30-days-of-truth/

The first day - SOMETHING YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF

Where to start on this hmmmm......
Well I absolutelyy hate my nosee!!!! It's so long and it sticks out which is not good!!! Although I would never ever get a nose job or any cosmetic surgery :s
I hate that I don't have any curves I'm just thin which makes it soooo hard to find clothes which look nice on me!
I hate having no confidence or self-esteem :-( it makes things so much worse for me, I have to do things at a slower pace and making friends seems to be harder as well
I hate my operation that I had 4 years ago on my back, the amount of pain it's causing/caused me is so annoying! But there's nothing I can do about it now is there?

I think I have covered everything, where as somethings can't be fixed ie my back I can help myself become more confident which I do by speaking to myself in the mirror  telling myself I am great  ;D
It seems to be working!! My driving instructor said I'm nearly ready for my test :D:D:D


















Come back tomorrow for the next challenge xxx